Party Monster: A Fabulous But True Tale of Murder in Clubland

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Party Monster: A Fabulous But True Tale of Murder in Clubland

⑁ Download Format Kindle [ Party Monster: A Fabulous But True Tale of Murder in Clubland ] For Free ⑥ Kindle By James St James ┛ March 31, 1996There are times, when the drugs are flowing and the emotions are running high, the lights and music can make you dizzy and the world slips out of control.It s like a car accident that happens too quicklyyou can t stop it, you can t think about it, you just have to lean back, and watch as everything changes forever.You ve lost control, you say to yourself, as the wheel of the world slips from your hands It s happening too fast and all you can do is wait for the ride to end, the car to crash, the world to stop.It s like chasing after time, chasing after the things that have already happened, because the drugs have made you too slow You re thick and awkward, but if you can just catch up, then maybe you can grab it, maybe you can grab at time and stop it But no.It s already happened.You have no choice Play it out.That s how Michael described to me the moments leading up to the murder That s the way he described killing Angel.I didn t realize when I came over to his house to warm my feet that we would be having such a serious conversation I must confess, I was rather unprepared for it.You see, my night had started off very typically When I surfaced from my K hole, I didn t know where I was, exactly, but that s not unusual I didn t recognize anybody, either, but that, too, is not unusual Often on Special K, everybody looks like Mrs Butterworth all clear and brown and syrupy slow It s usually quite comical to watch them pour over each other and on to each other, then ooze across a dance floor.I panicked, though, this time, and bolted from whatever club I was just in too quickly perhaps.I was barefoot and without a coat I was wearinghmmm, what was I wearing Goodness I guess I was wearing a peignoir not at all suitable for a blizzard in Times Square.But yes, by the looks of it, I was in Times Square, nearly naked, in half drag, and those spots in my eyes were snowflakes.I didn t have any money and, for the life of me, I couldn t remember where I lived And the club I had just left It had already disappeared.A sticky situation.I stumbled through the storm until I came across a police station.The doors were locked, so I knocked, and when an officer opened the door, I boldly announced that I was turning myself in I would like to be taken into custody immediately, please I m very cold Strangely, they wouldn t let me in Please, sirs, I m sure I ve done all sorts of illegal things this evening We can work out the charges later Now about that one phone call There s a phone booth on the corner, the officer growled and locked the door on me again Go away, you I had to beg for change, and New Yorkers proved to be a callous lot Maybe it was that my eyes were going, lizardlike, in two directions Maybe it was my potbelly spilling out of the filmy little negligee that I was wearing But nobody stopped to help, which was just as well I didn t know my phone number, anyway.I sat down in a puddle to cry.Then I looked up and saw a beacon of hope Miles away, but there A point of reference Riverbank My old home My fortress of solitude Michael s home now I can go to Michael s I can go home to Riverbank I hobbled through the snow, with a little string of snot swinging from my nose in the frigid night air I had only a few rocks thrown at me on the way.The doormen, God Bless Them, remembered me and let me go straight up Michael s door was open, wide open, but nobody was home I sat down and inspected my battered little body for frostbite and chilblains and I don t even know what chilblains are.But I was safe.Safe and sound on friendly ground I took a quick look around, and was surprised by what I found Since when, I wondered, did Michael Alig ever show any interest in home decorating When did he get taste He d always been alarmingly unoriginal, as far as I was concerned.But this It wasn t Brooke Astor s taste, to be sure, or even mine, but his apartment had undergone a rather radical transformation in the months since I d last seen it A decent Louis Quinze replica rested in the corner, a marble bust of some mad composer in the foyer, a red velvet sofa with golden claws and ram s head armsNot bad Little glass drug vials filled with colored liquids dangled prettily from a new chandelier and tinkled in the night air.Very odd.He clomped into the apartment and when he saw that I was there, threw his arms around me Skrinkle he cried Oh Hey, Skroddle Lover la da, I m so glad you re here We have so much to catch up on Would you like some tea he asked Here, come get nice and comfy We went into the bedroom and climbed onto his big new bed He put a Bergman film Wild Strawberries Michael was watching Wild Strawberries into the new VCR on top of his new television, that sat next to his brand new computer Something was very wrong here Michael, you can t even read What on earth do you need a computer for Ohahit s agift for Freeze He waved his hand dismissively Scone They re from Balducci s I shook my head no Then he got out nine bags of heroin and lined them up on the tray next to the tea cozy.I reached for a bag and he slapped me After I want you coherent for this Now try the tarts We nibbled and sipped and giggled like geese.Then twenty minutes later James, we have to talkDo you notice anything different Anyone missing Missing From this room I don t get it No, just missing in general A drug dealer who hasn t been seen in a while Freeze No, no, no Another drug dealer Used to stay here Freeze stays here The other drug dealer who stays with me I hate it when you do Special K I shrugged thickly Angel, James Angel Haven t you noticed Angel hasn t been around Angel Ech.0 I mean, well, sure, I guess Angel was a drug dealeroh, but he was the worst kind of drug dealer the kind who actually wanted money for his drugs How rude is THAT So, I avoided him like the plague, of course, which wasn t easy He strutted around the clubs like he was God s Own Cousin, sporting a ridiculous pair of wings, yes WINGS Dingy old white wings, that were always knocking off my wig or spilling my drink Oh, he was such a nightmare No, Michael, I said, I haven t seen Angel lately I don t care enough for him to keep track of where he is In fact, you really ought to get rid of him He makes you look bad He s so nasty And those wings are so damn annoying Oh Well, you ll be happy to hear that I did just that I got rid of him, all right He laughed in that staccato, half snort and gulp that is uniquely his Yep, I got rid of him, boy, once and for all Skrink la da doo I killed him I didn t believe it at first He was exaggerating, I thought Something happened, of course, something always happens.Oh, Angel probably was dead, all right No big deal Or maybe he was in the hospital Who cared They had probably been partying too hard and Angel overdosed Happens all the time People die around us all the time Drop like flies Overdose AIDS Sometimes they kill themselves People come They go Dying is the same as rehab or moving back to Missouri It just means I won t be seeing them again New people were already in line to take their place.Hey ho I grabbed a bag of heroin Please, James This is serious I could tell that he really was upset.So he told me the whole story, from beginning to end, how he and Freeze had murdered Angel during a fight, and how they dismembered the body and threw it into the Hudson River There is a fight, an argument Each one contends, in turn, that he is owed money Michael, of course, has been robbing Angel blind for months, stealing his drugs, dipping into his profit margin Everybody knows it Angel knows it, but because Michael is his idol, he has chosen not to say anything Until now Suddenly, he wants it back He wants it all back Michael is outraged Angel owes him money, he says, Angel owes him rent.Such a confrontation would have been inconceivable just a few short weeks ago Angel wouldn t have dared.But times have changed.The fight escalates They re both angry, out of control Michael is like an ape child who doesn t know his own strength, who frequently bites and draws blood, who doesn t notice doesn t care feels justified in fact, and is oblivious to the pain and discomfort of others Michael, the ape child, punches Angel, or kicks him he s petulant, angry, not about the money, not about the argument, but about the shift in power Angel is fighting back and that means Angel is lost to him forever.Angel has been empowered, you see There had been another fight, an earlier fight, two days before, in which Angel finally stood up to Michael It was a first, and a precedent was set he can fight back, so he does He pushes Michael up against the wall.Things are happening quickly now.At this point Michael s roommate Freeze walks in With Daniel No, that s not right Maybe Freeze walks in alone Maybe Freeze wakes up when Daniel arrives, or maybe Daniel wakes up when Freeze walks in Who can tell Michael s story changes with each retelling The official story, though, according to the newspapers, is that a boy named Daniel was asleep in the next room when Freeze entered the living room So Daniel is asleep and therefore not a part of what happens next Got that Here we go.Freeze then leaps into the fray, although this is unlike any side of Freeze that I ve ever seen Freeze, who is detached, emotionally unplugged and unavailable, who floats in and out of people s lives so carefully, quietly, always, so as not to disturb the balance of things, so that he may come back again and again and nobody will mind this very different Freeze leaps into the fray to help Michael Apparently, just this once, he felt compelled to muster up some energy, bring himself to care Maybe he thought of Michael as his last chance, the last person who could possibly help him, and he sought to protect him Or maybe he had been freebasing again and that accounts for the energy and the anger it must have taken, because a freebasing Freeze is an evil mother fucker.At any rate, help arrives.Like all faggots who fight, there is kicking and screaming and much Mary ism involved Nelly little girls grab the first thing they see and use it.Michael needs help, fast, just grab something and use it, swing, connect, hurt, like anybody would.Freeze took a hammer and hit three times, knocking Angel to the floor.There are times when the world slips out of control It s like an accident that is happening too quickly, and you can t stop it, you can t think about it, you have no choice but to lean back and watch as everything changes forever.All you can do is wait for the ride to end, the car to crash, the world to stop.You re chasing after time, chasing after the things that have already happened, because the drugs have made you too slow You re thick and awkward, but if you can just catch up, you can grab it, you can stop it But no.It s already happened.You have no choice but to play it out.And they see what s happened.Roll the film.There is blood everywhere and Angel is down His head is open.In one of Michael s versions of the story, Angel does not go quietly into the night The dead man made a reluctant corpse He seizes, he seizures, he tries to make it to the door He looks to Michael for help He looks to Michael for help even utters those words He is confused, hurtDoes he know that it is about to end Can he think clearly, can he comprehend the enormity of what is about to happen or has his mind short circuited with the last blow In a later version, he screams and they muffle those screams with a pillow This may or may not have been true, although it is important to remember that he mentions doing this only later, and then just as an aside Neither one of them knew that asphyxiation was the official cause of death They learned that with the rest of the world after the body had been examined Which means, they were operating under the assumption that he was still with us when theywhen they He s down He s hurt Not moving now Call the police Call an ambulance Ah, but the need for self preservation is stronger than you think Angel is over Angel is no If he lives he will most likely be brain damaged or a vegetable He may be paralyzed, comatose something is very wrong Will somebody please pick the brains off the floor Something awful, something irreparable has happened to him If he were to live, if they were to call the police he may be in a coma for the rest of his life, for the rest of their lives They would be responsible forever for what has happened.It is far easier to rationalize, in that state of mind, that they are doing the humane thing They are putting him out of his misery He is in pain Let s get it over with.And it will save all of us, the rest of our lives, having to care for this vegetable, cripple, or whatever.So how do we do it I m not going to do it Well, I m not going to do it You do it You re the one who hit him over the fucking head I was helping you, asshole Goddamn it, we are in this together This is what is happening now this is how it s playing out.Not me, not you I m not going to do it We ll both do it Now this is how it s done, this is how it s done in the movies, on TV Anyone who has ever grown up watching Columbo, Quincy, Cannon, Charlie s Angels this is what murderers doThey make a pact They will do it together They are bound together forever.How to do it There s a needle Maybe a heroin overdose Good God, man, how could you even suggest such a thing We re going to need that In fact, let s all do a bit right now, just to think clearly They do, and a method crystallizes.OK, now get the Drano.From the kitchen.Find a vein, and insert your needles At the count of three, I want you to push into Angel s body the steaming, acidic mix of caustic lye and sodium silicates Try not to look at his eyes, and notice not the tears that flow down his cheeks Never mind the terror and the pain and the confusion he feels Look away from the betrayal and the death Never mind the future, never mind yourselves.One,Two,Three.There is a final flash of pain his body arches, leaps upward, eyes open, accusing.And it s all over For Angel it s all over forever For Michael and Freeze only five minutes have passed but five minutes that changed who they were forever.What next How now Unfolding in front of us is a scene so chilling, so horrific, so utterly bizarre that if you look real close and real fast you can actually see Alfred Hitchcock in the background, cleaning the windows.Look at this Look at them Two wild eyed dope fiends huddled around ye olde corpus delecti, needles poised, Drano drained.Blood is everywhere Torrents of blood spilled into the hallway A trail that starts in the living room pushes its way into the hall, past the kitchen Almost to the door He almost made it out the door, almost free, almost lived, but he was stopped, a third blow to the head, or a pillow to the face Whatever.Sticky red footprints in a grotesque dance pattern left foot, left foot, right, right, rightHandprints smeared on the walllittle blue clots of something like jelly, stuck in the floorboardsAs the horror dawns, as they realize what they ve done, a vague unease settles upon themfar offnot yet formednot yet understood, are the troubles they faceBut for now, one thought, one voice How easy it was How simple Anybody could have done this There is no mystery to death No complicated pattern, nothing difficult They are not special It could happen again Anytime Anywhere Of course A slight miscalculation, a simple mistake it didn t take a special kind of person Death was easy A piece of pie That is the true horror.So now action A call to order A caucus Murderers unite.The exact words, the exact blocking, is blurry The minutes of that meeting are lost forever I do know that Michael panicked and called Peter, his boss, for help Peter who has always helped, who was magic that way, and pulled strings that don t exist for the rest of us he called Peter but was denied access by Peter s girlfriend, Alexandra Leave us alone, she said Click, she said.Three times they called, and three times they were denied.What to do What to do I know Freeze became unhinged, going on a crack binge of superhuman proportions.Watching at the window.Waiting.For the police For Angel s ghost.For a long time he was silent, watching the snow of that terrible winter sweep along the terrace I don t know what you re talking about You re fucking crazy This, whenever Michael tries to talk about what happened Whenever Michael starts complaining about the smell, the body.But horror fades whereas comedy endures.Michael bounces back with breathtaking elasticity Within hours, it is business as usual.He stashes the body in the bathtub to let fluids drain They go shopping Invite friends over Many friends Never mind the stench, pass me a straw Like a lousy, lopsided Lucy episode, a girl goes in the bathroom to pee, and a mottled arm tumbles out from behind the shower curtain Oh, excuse me she says, I didn t know there was anyone in here And she quickly hurries back to the party.Needless to say, that bathroom is blocked off a mattress is leaned against it and that smell Plumbing problemsFinally, how long has it been a week almost two and something must be doneThat bloated, gaseous, purple corpse must go Freeze is no help This is your problem, Michael I suppose they argue, but finally it s up to Michael to chop off the legs It s the only way he ll fit in the box.A bargain was struck Freeze would go to Macy s and buy the cutlery required to dispose of the remains He would also provide Michael with enough heroin to do the job Fuck you, Freeze, Michael said as he inhaled an unprecedented ten bags of heroin, I hope I overdose and die and then you have two bodies on your hands I hate you for making me do this But once the inevitable is accepted, this, too, is not so bad Fortified by the warm blanket of dope, and swept up in a Technicolor B movie fantasy, he takes to his task like Leatherface at Thanksgiving Was it hard to do Did you have to hack at it I asked No, no, no It was like cutting chicken The meat just fell off And the bones snapped really easy Then he showed me the ordinary kitchen knife he used.Who was this person in front of me, I wondered yet again, but I reminded myself that person is me There but for the Grace of Godopposite ends of the same stickand all thatAnd that was the story as he told it to me that first night, except for a few loose ends.Like instead of taking the almost always empty service elevator at Riverbank, they take the trunk down the main elevator, sharing it with an older gentleman who couldn t help but comment on the smell.past the security guards and doorman, bless emAnd then, via taxi, to the pier across the street from the Tunnel After both bags of legs sank nicely to the bottom, they tossed in the box But, of course oh those wacky club kids comedy ensues when they realize the trunk was lined with cork.They couldn t do anything except watch as Angel floated off to his sweet reward.Yes, kids, Angels float, and that was his ultimate revenge Of course, as he was weaving this tawdry little tale, my world was ending.My head fell into one of those spinning cartoon vortexesThe room was lurching and heaving about, the floor would drop, the ceiling cave in Spikes popped out of the walls and the walls inched closer togetherI was frozen in an adorable Macaulay Culkinesque pose, with my mouth wide open, throughout.No, I did not respond to all of this with my usual lan Nothing could ever be the same I was no longer the same naive waif blowing sideways through life My wide eyed innocence was gone, and within the space of that half hour, I was transmogrified into the bitter, broken hag you see before you.Michael had finally gone too far In one fell swoop no, make that three fell swoops he destroyed everythingeverything he had worked so hard to create And now the party was over The ride was through It was the end of an era, MY era, and, damnit, that meant I was about to become dated Talk about adding insult to injury My goodness, I finally managed, as I collected the clumps of hair that had fallen from my head, that s quite a story Does this change your opinion of me Do you love me less A difficult and, well, rather unexpected question, given the circumstance Really best to sit down and think about it another day Of course I love you, darling, I replied automatically Then It s just that, well, you re Michael Alig, I ve always known you were capable of really big thingsmonumentalhistoricalthings Oh that is so sweet He air hugged me, then added And you re James St James, don t forget I know, dear And we gave each other a quick social peck My point wasI justI mean, why waste your big chance at immortality on Angel He was so inconsequential He wasn t worth it You couldn t have taken out Bianca Jagger Rubbed out Courtney Love You realize that everything from now on is changed because of Angel What a waste He looked almost humble for a moment I need a bag rather desperately, Michael Well, I m glad you re finally addicted Oh, I m not Blech Heroin is such an ugly drug Everytime I do it, every day of my life, I m reminded just how unattractive it is, and how happy I am that I m not addicted.I sniffed one bag, just to get a grip on the situation Disgusting stuff First of all, it tastes filthy Like powdered pavement Like your mother s disapproval Then there s the gag and the drip, followed bynothing So of course I did This news was a lot to deal with.And I just never learn when to stop.My eyes won t stay open, but they won t stay closed, either So it s a tic toc thing, jerking, then slumping, heaving and sighing Moaning and groaning.No, no, no, I think This is all wrong, I think.None of this is right.I m nasty Nauseous Groggy I can t pee For the life of me Pretty soon I ll be vomiting urine Then I ll need the old do it yourself catheter kit.Oh, I hate heroin.Maybe this time it will be better.Yea, maybe I ve been doing it wrong all these times.I began slowly putting the pieces together So, all this new stuffthe furniture, the computerBalducci sthe drugs Money from Angel s bag Eight thousand, he said Or thirteen Or twenty I can t rightly recall The heroin was kicking in and for once I was swept away in a warm current of sanguine thoughts Waitwait a minute You mean, it was registering You went on a shopping spree afterward Gorgeous Suddenly the whole situation seemed farcical Slapstick And we laughed until our sides hurt We laughed until tears ran down our faces And those boots, Michael They look awfully familiar Angel s And we collapsed on the pillows in peals of girlish laughter You re wearing Angel s boots laughter Aren t they nice Then we stopped laughing as abruptly as we had begun Do you still love me Really he asked.Hanging in the airspace above my head was the monstrously vain implication that I even loved him in the first place Endured him, yes Admired him Yesbut with clenched teeth And I suppose I even got a vicarious kick from the improbable life he had always led But it was a wistful kick, and it always made me sad, like I was in the backseat straining to see the fun that was going on ahead of me.But if familiarity breeds contempt, it also fosters a bond and over the years he had become family He has been at various times my best friend, my worst enemy, my rival, my partner, my neighbor, my boss, and my worst nightmare so buck him, fuck him, chomp at the bit to get away from himhe was still there He was Michael And no matter how you sliced it whoops yes, I loved Michael, still Of course, I do darling I sighed Do you have any K But this didn t mean I could ever accept what happened I needed to understand it, pull it apart I needed to synthesize the previous monster, who was merely annoying, with this new one, who was actually homicidaland, importantly, I had to look at the monster in me that could understand and love someone like this.To do that, I had to go back Way back, to the very beginning My head hurt, and the crest of dope was breaking Where was that Special K He poured some out and I inhaled a hefty line.I could hear the skrinkling of Michael s new computer as the K pushed me down and carried me away My mind splintered into a thousand fragments, then regrouped and configured as it saw fitCopyright copy 1999 by World of Wonder Productions, Inc.All rights reserved, including the right of reproductionin whole or in part in any form.A vastly entertaining, scarily well written, and horrifically funny bookeven at its most gruesome The Balti Sun It is the best book I have ever read.It s Our Lady of the Flowers with thigh slapping humor It s Liberace s Last Exit to Brooklyna lovely and horrible discourse on death Simon Doonan The New York Observer A surprisingly funny and touching memoir The New York Post monster English French Dictionary monster 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